I’ve been a little worried
about everything
and I think that’s having a greater effect on
me than I’m capable of comprehending—
so
I decided to stop
drinking last
night, what if my
liver were to
explode?
and it’s only been about 36 hours, since I’ve
last had a beer, and I already feel
different
better
changed
more awake, although
I’m still feeling the after-effects
of drinking crazily for five years
and traveling like a madman
drinking, drinking
in Turkey, Serbia,
Thailand, Cambodia,
Bali, New Zealand,
and here in Vietnam
what else
is there
to do?
Netflix? ah, Netflix, you say
every time I watch Netflix
I fall asleep
even when I’d tried to watch
the documentary on Miles Davis, I couldn’t
hang
closing my eyes
as a child
opens a banana, dropping
the peel to the
floor—mamma’ll pick it up
but mamma ain’t here!
and every day, it’s the same thing
almost
throat gets tighter
and the world groans a little bit more
a little bit more a little bit
more
and I am stuck here, with a postponement
in self-isolation
this,
I’m used to
and I’m getting so much work done! advertising it
to nobody
at all
I can’t watch all those things you recommend
on Netflix, it makes me fall
asleep
it’s a dry world
getting
hotter all the time
and the trash-bins are full
every
night, it costs about, what?
$7.99/month
yeah, what about
that? come on, you could write
something better than whatever’s on there, can’t
you? try it sometime—
or maybe you’d rather sit there, thinking
about writing those poems to no one
and, one day
it’ll be Friday, you’ll be
listen-
ing
to
Thelonious Monk, going back

in
time
offering
yourself
a little
bit
of solace
in this crazy
world of
ours, before
you go drift-
ing off to
sleep.

Bryan William Myers has been traveling around the world since October 2018. He visited 12 countries last year. His work has appeared in various literary magazines such as Red Fez, Whirlwind Magazine, Entropy, Nightingale & Sparrow, Beatdom, Poetry Pea, and forthcoming in Mineral Lit Mag. He’s self-published 13 books. His website is bryanwilliammyers.com. Twitter: @bryanwillmyers.